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The tears will flow easily today.  Last night was a battle.  A big battle.  I haven’t cried like this in years probably.  It has left me shaken and confused, a little heartbroken, and terribly sad.  I even have what appears to be burst blood vessels on my face from crying and getting sick.   I am not a perfect mother by any means, but it seems I’m not even a good one.  I’ve thought I”ve praised, loved, kissed, and cuddled Adam and provided for him in every way he needs, but to be told the ways I have failed has cut me into a thousand pieces.  I know my emotions are made worse by being pregnant, but it’s going to be a struggle to get through today.   But this has left me wondering how have I affected Adam and why God has blessed me to be carrying another beautiful baby.  Please send words of wisdom my way.  To cry all day would be what I need, but I must tend to my job today, my not nearly as important or stressful job……*sigh*